Insomnia_失眠

I think that I am Sick
Seriously ill

this is the second day that I having a emotion unstable night
I need something I need someone to subside my emotion

I am being impatient to a lot of things recently
I just wish that I could done all the tasks in a day in a hour even a second !!
Even how hard I eat how hard I drink how hard I play, i just can't keep myself calm ...
Midnight is my nightmares for these days, haunting me every seconds

I am so afraid that I couldn't fulfill my dream my aims for this blow ..
I am putting a lot of pressure on myself that I know but I just can't control myself !!
I look normal from any appearance but my heart ...
it's like non-stop sea wave hitting on the cliff ...
... non-stop sea wave pushing on the beach.

I'm so sorry that I can't keep myself under control =((
I'm just feeling that I am losing myself gradually
I'm going to sleep right now
hope the sweet dreams come to knock my door tonight ...