Where's My Destiny

Sometimes I really wondering why am I here in Despark??
They are childish, dreamless, and most of the time
we are wasting time in the class.
"They" are my coursemates + classmates

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Training Training Training Training Training~!!!
Promised Adrian, So I have no choice but to train hard...
haha kidding~ I just finding an excuse to motivate myself...
wanted to jog today early morning but I overslept...囧
just can't get up in the early morning lah haiz~

Gonna start my intense training tomorrow which last for 1 week...
I am offer for a week school holiday as my study week for my LEVEL 1 exam
and I gonna give up my study week instead to do my training...
however, i got to manage my study time during my work free time...
I think this will not be a problem =)
hope everything done as well as my wish^^

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Took a photo with a FAIRY at "SHOW HOUSE"
she's soooo sweet~!
when she was not smiling, she was pretty like HELL !!
when she was smiling, she was sweeeeet like PARADISE !!
I was totally attracted by her~!!!
I just wish that every words I said could bring her a SMILE !!
This satisfy me enough enough already lah !!!

But unfortunately, who are called as a FAIRY from me is who...
I think I will never manage to reach her...
because I am not eligible to match with HER ^^
nice to meet with you FAIRY~

Who's the Fairy??
see on the bar right-side ^^

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Bunny Bunny~
another sweet girl in the office I worked for
we had indirectly contact for few times only
but there was no any reply from her already...
was she had boyfriend already??
or fear of Manager scold??
or she didn't received my email??

awww~~come on God~
what do you want to do on me??
why do you playing fool on me??
is it that I am still belong to HER?? =)

IDIOT

You people can't believe that what kind of stupid thing I had done yesterday~!!!
CAn't even use simple words to explain how is my feel...
really upset now~!!!

I deleted my all PHOTO & PICTURE in my "My Picture" folder..
I was trying to reformat my laptop but i found that I didn't have enough memory to transfer out my important files so that I cancel my mind on reformat..
I think it was something wrong when I was transferring files..
I think I'd closed the folder before all the files transfer finish so end up like this situation...

Haiz~
can't believe that I did this~!!!
it was all about the photo we took from the time when I was form 3 all the way untill now..
really fuCK ah~!!!!

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Was trying to get more friendly among colleagues
I think I am doing well with that..
upgrading my Malay now~
Hope everything go smoothly XD

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Here~!!
there's a gift for you---adrian
I bought it but haven't delivered yet..
Hope you like it..
it's a proof that we have the same target & same dream to pursue with...
it's also a promise we must fight harder & harder to achieve it~!!
It's good to pursue the same dream along with friend =)
But don't you forget that "You are my opponent too"

"FRIENDs ARE THE BEST OPPONENT FOREVER"

sHuT tHe fUck Up

FUck up!! I can't even speak well with my Manager...
my speaking is really poor...
I hate myself for being so helpless when I face the problem in speaking...
not only in english but my Malay too.
Seems like my tongue is short and thus cause my pronouncing being so poor XD
Mind me to ask...got any candidate
wants to practice MUET speaking with me voluntary huh??XD

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My backbone is injured as it happened long ago.
my dad told me that don't to consume cold drink often...
and tea coffee which sweet with lots of sugar in mamak stall...
because it slows down our blood circulation and will caused my joint get injure easily.
Of cause I heed my dad's advice. After that my condition had change better
but sometimes it still feel painful and uncomfort when sitting for too long...

Adrian advised me about better consult a doctor and do a body check up specialize on my spine
and he told me that a friend of his dad was experienced spine injury too.
His condition getting serious when he was on working and climbing up down ladder as he's worked as an electrical technician.
The medical report shows that his backbone was moved from its original position.
He took one month to get recover for it.XD

Of cause I will heed his advice too and I was thought about the same thing before
but now I have no time to do for that.
I think I better take a day leave for doing a body check up XD

Recall of that, I get injured my spine one year ago when I was worked as a trainee of car repairing.
The top 2 injured part for an Automotive Mechanic is SPINE and EYES
I don't even start my career already get injured,I just can't imagine how hard could I bear for it after this.
GOD bless me XD

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I said:

"Do Not Look Down At ME"

because this could help to boost me up...
I will Be feel very grateful to yoU XD

buck up all the way ^^

过弃情人节

2月14号 情人节
有女朋友的会买花
我没女朋友的 也学人买花

这束其实不算贵 RM50一束
别间店少少要RM75
嗯。。。很美一下
可惜美丽的事物都没有永恒的权力
多几天 就要凋谢了
就让照片 摄下它的永恒吧

我终于拿到你的电话号码了
可是你有男朋友了
当年我扛起了几万斤重的勇气
主动找你聊天 跟你要了号码
那次应该深深的吓倒你了
唉。。我中学的败笔

你卖的花 很美
祝你幸福 你的幸福会是我夜晚闪亮的星星 ^^

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你的心机让我作呕
你的色性让我鄙视
你的失信让我不悦
你的失言让我不屑

总有一天 你会连自己怎么死都不知道

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忘不了 放不下
又如何
有谁规定一定要这么做
不管怎样 最重要的是
我们都不该忘了 该怎么好好的活下去
至少下次见了面 可以很自豪地对她说
“我过得很好”

一生中在“拼什么”
“拼图”
一片一片拼出来
不到最后谁都不知道
拼出来的 会是什么

自我 消失

认识自己 一次

原来我活了那么多年 一直都把自己关起来
情绪都藏在心底 不给别人看见
常常嬉皮笑脸的高源 其实是个不开朗的人
事实是 我害怕面对真正的自己
选择了逃避

我不会怀疑自己的能力 只怀疑自己的毅力
我常叫自己有信心 可是遇到别人我就静掉了
我真的觉得 我要敞开胸怀 看开一点 少在乎一点
这些是我的弱点 好不容易才面对的弱点
不过又担心 改了会不会就变成不是我了？？

我并不帅 我知道
有时还会笑得很难看
所以我想尽量打扮自己 这样或许会比较有Style
有时 照片会拍得比较好看 是因为角度 有对到
就好像换个角度看事情一样 会比较美好比较轻松

我以前不喜欢竞争
一直都保持与世无争的 之后却发现自己
隐藏在心底的好胜心 比谁都还要强
我有必定要有一番成就的誓言

我要学习如何当面面对他人的勇气
也要学习放下面子放下害羞
但这样 会不会变得我不是我？？
矛盾啊~

女朋友是。。。
有个人可以分忧 可以关心
可以付出可以照顾
最重要是可以聊心可以说未来
那种感觉 叫做贴心叫做幸福

你。。。是我要找的人吗？？

Move On Move On

工作......都习惯了
眼睛也不累了
一天要打上千万个字
我......是活动打字机器

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我妒忌 我挑战
我失败 我突破
嫉妒心使人上进
也使人败名一世


我把妒忌放在口袋收好 —— 羡慕 + 赞赏
栽培成朵朵的小幼苗 —— 挑战 + 计划
一天一天细心的在灌溉 —— 努力 + 耐性
祈祷它茁壮长大成树 —— 等待 + 收获
洒下一个个骄傲的种子 —— 荣誉 + 成功

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算过了 我一个月平平用
要用600零吉 包括网费+车油
要剩着上PJ用啊~

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对羽球运动 我真的爱不释手
我很希望自己有一天
能邀请家人+朋友说
“来观看我的比赛吧”

我不会放弃羽球 也不能放弃
即使我无法晋级到正式的大比赛
到了年老如果还有机会
我还是会邀请大家说
“来看我的比赛吧”
^^
MOVE ON!

无题

以前：
妈：你有钱用吗？没有跟我讲

现在：
我：妈，你够钱用吗？？不够跟我讲

伟大吧？？XD LOL

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嘴角

勉强撑起了微笑

我再也不想像上次一样 哭着要你留下

也要让全世界知道 没有你 我依然能过得很好

赶路

舍得
舍弃了最后赢盘的机会
换来了大家丝丝的微笑和快乐
我不是想做英雄
只是 学会舍得
让周围人的生活 邹眉减少一些 XD

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周围同学朋友们 都出坡一段时间了
为什么还剩下我 还留在这里
好想快点把书读完 到外坡去升学
我还要赶路的啊~~~~~~~~~~
你要我一天读10个小时我都没问题
只要能快点把所有的知识学到就好了

路途 是低了点 路费 是贵了点 时间 是慢了点
但也不会成为阻碍我 达成目标的障碍
风景 是怪了点 福利 是少了点 环境 是输了点
但也不会成为影响我 迈进目标的步伐
一个个踩过的路途 都是迈向目标的里程碑

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友人说：为了爱情枉费学业 真的是太傻了
我就是这样 傻过了一遍
以前睡去的时间 我要一一弥补回来

一心想打好的球技
是为了不再在你面前输掉
也是为了想打出一个名堂
不要说我痴想 有种你不要看前方走路
but 可能会看得太远 而看不见石头被绊倒
不过我是用跑的叻 要跌就够够力来啊 XD

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我爱你 你爱他 他爱她
情情爱爱 很复杂
要嘛就在一起 不要嘛就把心里话说完就罢
要爱就不要伤害他 要爱就不要辜负他
做人就偶尔潇洒一点嘛
“潇洒小姐” 教你怎么做

可是
又有多少个人做得到...？？

What Happen to the Earth...??

If i am asked...
Your family member & dearly friends
are both drop into the sea...
who will you act to save first...
my answer is...
OF course my family members~!!!
but...i won't give up my Friends too~!!

Family is on the top place always...
but friends is important to us too~
actually...my aim is want to say...
my elder sis got misunderstood on me...

she expressed in another way saying that me petty on own family members
but treat well to friends...
I am petty as i admit
but i won't do that unreasonable
what if your owns property stuff is damaged
when that time you were not present
and you can only found out when you back to home
what will you react..??

Fortunately, the thing is not either broken & spoil...
but it is also too early to say that nothing will be happen

I keep this from telling my mom...
because i thought it's just a misunderstanding
as she don't know me well enough how could she make any conclusion at me??

oh well, i just want to spread out my sorrows
Just Let It Be...
Let ByGone Be...
gone~

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Natural disaster is here everywhere...
Is this a sign given by the God...??
MALAYSIA is a country free from natural disaster
but now is undergo flooding...
AUSTRALIA was encountered flooding too...
but now is undergo snowstorm...
forgot which country also encountering storm wind...

but why..?
why these happened..??
and why there's no human carry out investigation
for why all of these happen..??

The Earth can still undertake US human ..??
the most Complex & Brilliant living thing on the Earth

i can't imagine how long the future we can go & stay...
All of these seems we have no much time remain...
MAYBE...JESUS...IS...COMING......

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ENGLISH is my biggest obstacle & challenge
i facing barrier when trying to get improve of it...
however, i won't give up...
i will still searching the way to handle & master well for ENGLISH
hope i can get mastered it successfully

放弃了 无奈

放弃了 放弃了 放弃了无奈

某一晚在街灯下巧遇 我问候你回应
发现已不是单身的你~Girl~

当我知道你们想爱 有了开始有了未来
在我心里放不下的也该释怀
收拾好把它掩埋

没结果了 放弃 挽不了 逃避
放弃了 放弃了 放弃了无奈

某一晚在街灯下巧遇 我问候你回应
发现已不再眷念着你
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听着这歌 没有很悲伤
反而包含释怀的情感
再加上MV的舞蹈
太凡特西了

华人界的歌曲
曲子就不用说
写词人写到很悲
歌手唱得更加悲
听众听了更更加悲
怪不得自杀的案件有增无减 XD

FM93.3 醉心频道 我听到怕
时不时就来悲歌 搞到我偶尔会杯葛它
转到英文台

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亲醋 友醋 爱醋
人生充满了醋意
改不掉的大缺点
H~A~I~Z~
If You Feel Any Jealousy
That's Mean You Have Something On Her

自信该从何得来
太缺乏自信了 没有自信面对他人
或许放下自尊 放下妒忌 放下脾气
才拾得起 自信